I was beckoning the brink of disaster before You came along…

cold hearted and reclusive…  everything felt so wrong…

and then You came into my life and changed me for the better, you see…

and now I now what it feels like to live and love freely.

I had almost succumb to the dark, twisted labyrinth of life,

every turn was leading me further and further downhill…

I was fatigued, frightened, famished…  and sometimes…

I incapable of the capacity to feel.

But the second I thought about relinquishing myself to the turmoil,

suffering, the very depths of despair…

I found the silk thread of Your love, followed it, and at the very end

You were there.

You opened my eyes to a reality I’ve never experienced before…

Your grace and mercy nurtured me… and my bruised soul yearned for more.

You taught me what it really means to truly love…

like the kind that You feel when You smile down on me

from Heaven above.

You guided me in the steps to becoming a better man…

But first I had to surrender and be broken…

Before You… so that You could start the molding.

You tore down the walls surrounding my feelings

which had been built by my ego and cemented by pride…

which comes before the falling…

and now I seek Your face in all that I do,

and without reservation, I receive Your Higher Calling.

You are my water when I am thirsty…

My medicine when I am sick…

My food when I am  hungry…

The reason that I live…

And as long as The Most High feels He should spare my life,

all of my most profound love…

to You, I will give.

James Siler 2010